7:37 p.m. - 2008-02-13
\"I didn't stand a chance, I didn't stand at all\"
I am sitting in a dim apartment listening to Destroyer... and I have to appreciate what Jonathan wrote in his blog about Doogie Howser... Was he blogging? I guess I never really thought about it much before... Destroyer is good blogging music. If you are sitting in a dimly lit apartment watching time tick by one. minute. at. a. time.
I left work full of a lot of energy, ready to renegotiate my life into contracts and all that. I had the confidence to make my list of demands and make them win me back, But I ended up at a dark office building in a semi blizzard... another string of miscommunication I suppose... and made my way back here to this empty place.
I'm waiting for a text message that I also thought would come as a happy response, but hasn't come at all..
and time is ticking by sooo slowly.
Maybe I am just minutes ahead of real time today. I'm not sure.
Its really snowing now... But I should still probably go to school... and hope that produces quicker responses.
I wonder if this time warp will evaporate there, and suddenly I won't have enough time for anything again.
as to other things.
I don't know how to care about the past in the present anymore, but I can't seem to dismiss it.
I am 6 years different now.
... and yet probably not so different at all.
silent - 2009-02-22
december is darkest, in june there is light - 2008-03-06
"I didn't stand a chance, I didn't stand at all" - 2008-02-13
Night Windows - 2007-11-20
arms that can hold me? - 2007-11-19
